no point in being obtuse

inside my head 07/09/09:

2009-07-10T05:37:05Z

funny/not funny:

2009-07-07T06:18:04Z

i will never stop liking pictures of myself like this. it is borderline funny/not funny. if i ever have family this is going to be our christmas card. and pose! and pose!

this is cute:

2009-07-07T00:44:44Z

i saw this on cuteoverload

boxsquat @ 2009-06-22T19:36:00

2009-06-23T00:36:46Z

so i am not coming to peru next week. i am hoping it will be july 1-4 that i do come home though! sorry guys.

maple syruple:

2009-06-07T08:47:58Z

exhausted and back home. vacation was :)
pictures soon.

peace.

back porch sunset:

2009-05-20T17:44:13Z

please:

2009-04-07T04:28:07Z

for my roommate's studio class she would like to know this information from you, my livejournal friends and family: what was your favorite board game as a child? what was your favorite outdoor/physical game as a child, tag etc.? and most importantly why?

see a difference immediately:

2009-04-06T21:01:38Z

i was so cold last night i slept curled in a complete circle. in a thermal sweatshirt and full-length leggings. damn you weather. making me sick. something like a slurpee being spilled from the sky.

i called a cab this morning to take me to the grocery store where i bought day and nightquil, which i believe are cure-alls. other things that sound good when i am sick: orange juice, chicken soup, hashbrowns, diet coke, and dry cereal.

i guess at least i got sick on my day off? not that i didn't have plans or anything? i guess cute text messages and ellen make it up.

boxsquat @ 2009-03-18T13:31:00

2009-03-18T18:35:03Z

you fear you can't do it all and you're right.

boxsquat @ 2009-03-03T02:07:00

2009-03-03T08:07:16Z

it calls for a head of stars, but this should work:

2009-03-03T06:17:29Z

i love making guacamole. it is the most satisfying thing to make. well, one of the most. because of its simplicity and the wonderful smells of cilantro as my knife runs through it, sweet limes being squeezed by my hands and the best part of all, scooping the avocado's flesh from its skin as i hold it in my palm.

sorry about that. now that i read what i just typed it is a bit sexual. but that is how i like my food: sexy. i am not sorry.

this week has kind of sucked. but that was the past week. i just need to forget my problems, or something? right? yes.

i rearranged my bedroom in hopes of a clearer mind but it is really messing with me. i wake up not knowing where i am. it is all wrong. i am a very particular person and i cannot live like this anymore. or maybe a sensitive fung shui. i do not know. my furniture is not living in harmony.

i have two swaps to send off this week. or one i should have sent yesterday but i am being a bit lazy. that is one for pudding. the other one is candy, but not chocolate candy. i am not sure where i am getting the candy from but the pudding is from the czech republic. i am sending my partner my two favorite instants and some delicious mexican coffee flan.

one plus to being a real life adult is having a sweet amount of money returned to you at tax time. i am going to able to open a saving account and actually have a savings... well until i go on vacation, but what do you save up for as a young adult who isn't going to be settling down anytime soon? other than school, that is, but it doesn't matter how much i saved up for my school it still wouldn't be enough. and i rather pace myself right now by taking a low amount of credits and pay those off as i go, and wait until i am poor enough and old enough to have the fed. essentially pay me to go to school. thus i graduate undergrad in something like eight years, refuse to grow up, and in the end am close to debt free.

hannah and emilie, i miss you. i hope you are safe and enjoying that it is 61 degrees at midnight there. i envy you. i walked to get some produce today and my hands nearly fell off from the bitter wind. i will be coming home on a week that you both are home now.

molly and emily, i miss you. i am going to mega bus it to indianapolis this spring for a couple of days. show me your town. i miss riding in cars. riding in cars without constant breaking. and horns. maybe we can go on a tiny road trip in state?

things that are making me happy throughout my overhead raincloud days:

+lauren referring to 'having her feelers out'
+lauren referring to the top forty as 'the hits'
+james treating me like he always has, even though i have been a little short and off
+delicious summer-like fruits and vegetables lately
+my skin looking and feeling better
+rides home from work when i'm worn
+brisk walks to work making me feel alive
+more than civil conversations with my parents lately
+planning a trip to see my grandmother in missouri for spring
+thoughts of our road trip to start off summer
+getting in shape for this summer doing bikram yoga with lauren, starting thursday
+home movies

kid on the ellen show today:

2009-02-13T21:17:52Z

"what love means to me is candy. i love candy. my favorite kind of love is m&ms."

boxsquat @ 2009-01-27T20:41:00

2009-01-28T02:41:11Z

boxsquat @ 2009-01-22T22:48:00

2009-01-23T04:47:28Z

boxsquat @ 2009-01-15T00:40:00

2009-01-15T06:39:51Z

one more thing...

2009-01-10T17:08:17Z

i went to got see the wrestler with james tuesday night. it was very good. i recommend it for everyone. go see it. now.

whew:

2009-01-10T16:45:38Z

i cannot remember the last time i had a day off. (2.5 weeks ago?) i am going to savor this coming monday.

from wednesday until saturday day i have had company. jordon, louie, casey, and emily came to visit. we had a lot of fun. i took them around to a few of my favorite places in the city (o saka, american apparel, pick-me-up, and dulce-landina) but for the most part we just chilled out enjoying eachothers company. the boys left thursday evening while emily stayed until just a half hour ago when we dropped her off at the station. i feel bad because i think it overestimated their ability to endure the cold. resulting in them being miserable and anxious to get inside the apartment. things like taking the wrong bus and having to wait in the cold again for it to turn around and let us back on i find funny, but i think they were just annoyed and freezing balls.
it was jordan's 21st birthday so he got two birthday brownies free. i feel a little bad because i recommended a fat tire for his first drink and he didn't like it.

last night emily, lauren, ashley, and i went to this party at depaul, hahaha. it was fun until i became sober and then i didn't feel like bro-ing down. or did they. all the guys were disgusting. except for the half-asian that started dancing with me. he was cute.

what else. i need to take my contacts out. the words on my computer keep moving back and forth because my focus has been corrupted by the demon lenses. like i've said before, i would get lasik but i am convinced that i wll be blind in 40 years when they find the down-fall in the surgery. like arthritis from texting and cancer from redbull. probably. what do i know? nothing.

i need to shower.

until next time...

2009

2009-01-04T07:00:14Z

a.looking fine b.looking fine making noise at midnight ms. safety took care of business with the oven-mit to then serve the champagne dancing with banana claire

happenings of 2008:

2009-01-02T01:20:06Z

+my sushi consumption has quadrupled
+my first horrible nightmare of a hang-over
+jerry springer show nightmare
+winter hibernation that lasted until may
+being broke in may. only eating egg drop soup and spanish rice
+one move in, one move out. both pains.
+met james
+first close to full-time job
+mastered using chopsticks
+asked if i was pregnant by a stranger
+was stressed out
+went through a korean cuisine stage
+started drinking white wine
+started drinking coffee again
+donated plasma and wanted to die afterwards
+did a youtube video skit for emilie's birthday
+was miss piggy for halloween
+i think my childhood asthma came back but will never know because i don't have health insurance
+got my wisdom teeth out
+due to wisdom teeth removal, plasma, and flu i became comfortable with vomiting
+became self-sufficient
+watched the olympics, a lot
+got a new screen name
+started appreciating my parents more
+voted obama
+met cookie monster
+read more than previous years
+made more time for myself, but not as much as i should

lucky star:

2008-12-23T07:25:32Z

boxsquat @ 2008-12-18T16:01:00

2008-12-18T22:01:58Z

i think i might be home for christmas at least christmas day. fyi.

boxsquat @ 2008-12-08T22:31:00

2008-12-09T04:32:43Z

focus stephanie. read the book. write the papers.

i am being such a big baby.

bed:

2008-12-08T07:17:15Z

the best news i've heard all day:

2008-12-04T08:25:07Z

netflix now has watch instantly for macs! i don't feel jipped anymore.

stretching:

2008-12-03T07:38:33Z